Faith

"I want to say to you, about myself, that I am a child of this age, a child of unfaith and scepticism, and probably (indeed I know it) shall remain so to the end of my life. How dreadfully has it tormented me (and torments me even now) this longing for faith, which is all the stronger for the proofs I have against it. And yet God gives me sometimes moments of perfect peace; in such moments I love and believe that I am loved; in such moments I have formulated my creed, wherein all is clear and holy to me. This creed is extremely simple; here it is: I believe that there is nothing lovelier, deeper, more sympathetic, more rational, more manly, and more perfect than the Saviour; I say to myself with jealous love that not only is there no one else like Him, but that there could be no one. I would even say more: If anyone could prove to me that Christ is outside the truth, and if the truth really did exclude Christ, I should prefer to stay with Christ and not with truth."    

------Fyodor Dostoevsky

“我是时代的孩童，直到现在，甚至（我知道这一点）直到进入坟墓都是一个没有信仰和充满怀疑的孩童。这种对信仰的渴望使我过去和现在经受了多少可怕的折磨啊！我的反对的论据越多，我心中的这种渴望就越强烈。可是上帝毕竟也偶尔赐予我完全宁静的时刻，在这种时刻我爱人，也认为自己被人所爱，正是在这种时刻，我心中形成了宗教的信条，其中的一切对我说来都是明朗和神圣的。这一信条很简单，它就是，要相信：没有什么比基督更美好，更深刻，更可爱，更智慧，更坚毅和更完善的了。不仅没有，而且我怀着忠贞不渝的感情对自己说，这决不可能有。不仅如此，如果有谁向我证明，基督存在于真理之外，而且确实真理与基督毫不相干，那我宁愿与基督而不是与真理在一起。”  

------陀斯妥耶夫斯基